I was ready to talk from my broken place. I was ready to highlight what was wrong with me and call it a revelation. Sad part about it was that I really thought I was going to help people with my broken testimony. So let me give you the whole story now. For the past two weeks I’ve been crying out to God for help. I mean the amount of pressure and responsibilities had me thinking I wasn’t going to make it. So today was the spoiled cherry on top of this rancid sundae for me. After work I went to church for bible study something I’ve always done. I parked in the back to get some rest. Turning the truck off then on again to play some worship music so I can cleanse my mind. I started doing random things and finally decided to rest. Then the “Action Required” light came on and I immediately paid attention. It said ‘the battery is low, start the vehicle’. I obliged thinking okay that was simple enough. However the light didn’t go off, then a warning chime started. I was completely alert now. I tapped into my memory of having an old car in high school to help remedy the problem. Then drove the car remembering that’s how it gets charged. However, the light remained on and the chime was more frequent (or so it was in my mind). I pulled out my phone and googled the issue and a website advised me to have the battery tested. So I went to the auto part store. The man came out and tested it saying ‘ma’am you have a good battery’. I thought okay great, so why is the light still on then? He said “your battery is good but when you turned it on instead of cranking it up you drained it so low that it almost died, now the alternator will take a long time to charge it up again”. He advised to let it run for 30-40 minutes. I thanked the man and drove off. Thinking I’ll do that when I get on the road to go home. Remembering my prayer for help to God. I realized I was on low. My energy was low. My passion was low. My thrive was low. So I asked the question: How can you have a good battery that’s dying? Then continued to ask questions that people fall into: You were just giving this vision how can you be tired already? You were just hired how can you hate your job? You just got married How can you be sick of him/her already? You just found out you were pregnant how can you be over children? It doesn’t make any sense or does it? My brother, Phillip prayed this morning and said “God wants us to make Him our priority and the reason we are so tired is because we are going a lot of things He didn’t ask us to” I thought about that then asked for God’s help again. I made it back to church on time and went to service. With ‘Low battery’ at the forefront of my mind. Worship was bananas (slang for Amazing!) yet I sat, because I needed God to charge me up again. My pastor got up and flowed right into the worship yet I sat. I waited. The atmosphere was saturated with the glory of God yet all I could do was pray and cry. You see these things normally charged me with little to no effort, but I was dangerously low. My pastor preached and taught a great word, and I felt the charge getting me back to myself. By the end of the night I knew I was mostly charged. It wasn’t until I got to my truck and crank it up and saw the light was gone that my charge was complete! The truck needed to rest a while. God has been telling me over and over to rest, but I only rested after I worked other things. I wasn’t trying to be disobedient, but found myself disobeying. Then He took me to Psalm 23 and I started reciting it, but stopped and researched when I got to 2-4.
“He makes me to lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside the still waters. He restores my soul; He leads me in the paths of righteousness For His name’s sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.” ‭Psalms‬ ‭23:2-4‬ ‭NKJV‬‬ The shepherd made the lamb lie down and rest because of the journey through the valley of the shadow of death He knew they were going and He wasn’t going to carry the lamb but make him walk with Him. God is giving us a grace to rest to get our strength because the next level He’s not carrying us as babes in Christ, but children who can walk. I pray you get this word and it blesses you. Until next time, be great on purpose!